Tuesday, 23 September 2014

kar ka manka daar de, man ka manka fer...

Mala ferat jug bhaya..mita na mann ka fer..kar ka manka daar de..mann ka manka fer...These words were uttered by Kabir  centuries ago..Since we do not have any evidence of Kabir attending school, it clearly signifies that whatever he said was because of his own personal experiences. Yet, people revere him and follow his teachings and there is a sect too of his followers 'Kabir Panthi'.

Now point is why am I bothering about Kabir's schooling..Yes, I have a strong reason and an important question whether our spiritual journey needs any academic certificate?? I love to explore spirituality on my own since it is one's own individual journey. So I started my own...met lots of guru figures..followed some of them too...can't determine for sure now; if they are really spiritual gurus but so called care-taker or the persons who feel themselves as spreaders of knowledge on behalf of their guru in the entire world..

During this process I met a person who used to  spread, preach good thoughts given by his guru...acceptance..present moment and many more fundas were used by him..No doubt these are superb and outstanding words which will force you to think at least once, especially when a smart bold dynamic person next to you introduces himself from IIT institute  as a strong follower and oozes with confidence in whatever he is  preaching...

Hahaha..yes at least once..don't worry i don't have brains so I thought, a number of times, so they must be right...and my involvement became intense..I also started practicing these fundas because if you want to give others you have to follow it first...I used to go to schools, coaching institutes  telling about my spiritual institution...However, I was not a staunch follower yet..I used to meet other spiritual gurus also. Some of my spiritual colleague objected.."Stop doing this spiritual shopping, our guru is the best; why don't you understand.." and blah blah..

In the beginning phase I tried to  convince them but later I thought, 'leave them, you can't change them' and they stopped sharing their arguments, views as well..
Cycle of change continues and everything keeps changing on its own. So some changes were happening with me too...I completed my academic qualification and like others I also started preaching...whenever I used to go to preach the 1st thing I used to tell them was about my academic qualification..people used to listen very attentively...But every time I used to think, why it is important to stress upon academic qualifications..but didn't find any answers.

I'm IITian..I'm  CEO..MD, journalist. Does these words have any connection with the present moment, acceptance..why I am giving importance to academic degree..Once I asked my spiritual colleague he told me that I did engineering but than I realized that that path was not for me I wanted something else so I came to this path..It was pretty clear that he did not want to be a person sitting next to  system for 9 hrs..struggling with his monster type boss..

Since I had left my job,there was nothing much to do. So I got ample time to spend with my spiritual seniors and juniors...oh pardon me, for using this junior and senior lingo. As in our ancient culture we didn't have these concepts because we didn't have any university degree for spirituality earlier...but in contemporary times in order to revive spirituality or can I say to bring spiritual renaissance in society it has happened so..Certain codes and batch no. were given to us..so I also got codes..some were senior to me some were junior...To some of them I became very close who were preaching for 4- 5 years  prior to me..within a span of time I learnt a lot from them..they taught me how to tackle our students..how to be a good performer..how to attract crowd. I was at my peak..during this period I felt two paradoxes, one  you cannot become ill and another you cannot express yourself...

When you are on spiritual path people will take you as a superman..next to God in some respects..for instance...Once an old friend called me up and asked how I was..I simply said 'yaar everything is fine, bit cough and cold'...his instant reaction was arey you are preaching others about yoga and meditation how can you have all these..
Why man!!! why I can't have these..if I am teaching yoga and meditation it doesn't mean I am against law of nature..its not a big deal..now if I have constipation u'll ask arey you are a teacher how do you have constipation..very ridiculous..
Another incident; once I got angry with my sister and had a big fight.I don't think there is any issue when we have  sibling fights..it was highlighted and my colleague teacher told to take care of these things...because its going to hamper our guru image...
Whats wrong with us, man!!! how can anyone even point against super spiritual power..if I am angry if I do not like something.if I like something why should I pretend not to.
Is our spirituality is a burden.?
Why should I fake what I am not..why I can't be natural.. Still I wonder why my seniors are pretending to be goody goody and happy..when they are not..normally they would mention humko to sabko dekhna hoga..why man!!! if someone is wrong why can't I point it out..doesn't matter whatever post he is holding in spirituality or materialist world. If I'll wear white clothes..a big tilak..with passing smile... with a thought fake it till you make it..will not help me in spiritual growth.its apart from white clothes and tika..it doesn't need public glare and showoff..if I am not honest and true with myself. How can I be spiritual..simply by standing in front of 10-20 people with a smart introduction doesn't mean spirituality...
As you can clearly make out my spiritual schooling hasn't evolved  me immensely in my spiritual growth, here I am again pondering...Wow Kabir, what you have shown to us still shines as beacon of light and this thought would help me more than years of education....Aha, kar ka manka daar de, man ka manka fer...